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  He would be an exciting lover.

  Alex sat on the edge of the bed and turned out the light, then dragged both hands through her tousled hair.

  What was it about Grant Malone that had her reacting like a girl with her first crush? Even now, just thinking about the look in his eyes had her heart racing, her palms sweating. What in the world was happening to her? She wanted, right this minute, to have that muscled body pressed to hers.

  Enough of this, she cautioned herself. The last thing she needed was to start entertaining any ideas about romancing a guest.

  Alex lay down and snuggled under the blankets. From her stereo came the voice of Tony Bennett crooning about leaving his heart in San Francisco. She had no intention of leaving hers anywhere…or with anyone…except Grant Malone….

  Dear Reader,

  It’s the beginning of a new year, and Intimate Moments is ready to kick things off with six more fabulously exciting novels. Readers have been clamoring for Linda Turner to create each new installment of her wonderful miniseries THOSE MARRYING McBRIDES! In Never Been Kissed she honors those wishes with the deeply satisfying tale of virginal nurse Janey McBride and Dr. Reilly Jones, who’s just the man to teach her how wonderful love can be when you share it with the right man.

  A YEAR OF LOVING DANGEROUSLY continues to keep readers on the edge of their seats with The Spy Who Loved Him, bestselling author Merline Lovelace’s foray into the dangerous jungles of Central America, where the loving is as steamy as the air. And you won’t want to miss My Secret Valentine, the enthralling conclusion to our in-line 36 HOURS spin-off. As always, Marilyn Pappano delivers a page-turner you won’t be able to resist. Ruth Langan begins a new trilogy, THE SULLIVAN SISTERS, with Awakening Alex, sure to be another bestseller. Lyn Stone’s second book for the line, Live-In Lover, is sure to make you her fan. Finally, welcome brand-new New Zealand sensation Frances Housden. In The Man for Maggie she makes a memorable debut, one that will have you crossing your fingers that her next book will be out soon.

  Enjoy! And come back next month, when the excitement continues here in Silhouette Intimate Moments.

  Yours,

  Leslie J. Wainger

  Executive Senior Editor

  Awakening Alex

  RUTH LANGAN

  For Carol, whose heart is so open and generous.

  And for Tom, our snug harbor.

  Books by Ruth Langan

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  RUTH LANGAN

  Award-winning and bestselling author Ruth Langan creates characters that Affaire de Coeur magazine has called “so incredibly human, the reader will expect them to come over for tea.” Four of Ruth’s books have been finalists for the Romance Writers of America’s (RWA) RITA Award. Over the years, she has given dozens of print, radio and TV interviews, including Good Morning America and CNN News, and has been quoted in such diverse publications as The Wall Street Journal, Cosmopolitan and the Detroit Free Press. Married to her childhood sweetheart, she has raised five children and lives in Michigan, the state where she was born and raised.

  Contents

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Epilogue

  Prologue

  Snug Harbor Lodge—Snug Harbor,

  New Hampshire—1980

  “Grandpa Sully! Grandpa Sully! Hurry! Come quick!” The high-pitched sounds of two little girls shouting in excitement caused their grandfather to drop his fishing pole and scramble along the length of the dock until he reached them on a stretch of hill overlooking the lake.

  His granddaughters, eight-year-old Lizbeth and seven-year-old Celeste were gathered around their nine-year-old sister, Alexandra, who was kneeling in the dirt.

  “What’s happened, lassie?” As always, when he was agitated, Patrick Joseph Sullivan’s Irish brogue thickened. He pushed his way between them and dropped to his knees beside the oldest of his granddaughters. “Did you fall, darlin’? Are you bleedin’?”

  He’d seen Alexandra hiking the woods nearby, but he hadn’t worried, since Buck Thornton, his lodge manager and trail guide, had been with her. Old Buck would never let anything happen to the dark-haired little girl who had become his shadow. From the first day she’d arrived at the lodge, Alex had been tagging along behind the grizzled old woodsman, asking a million questions.

  Where do the animals sleep at night?

  How do the squirrels know where they stored their nuts?

  Why did the moss only grow on certain trees?

  Were the stars always in the same place in the sky every night?

  Since their arrival at Snug Harbor Lodge, Lizbeth, a plump, curly-haired urchin, had taken herself off to the garden to pass the days picking sweet ripe strawberries. Celeste, ever the little lady, preferred lying in a hammock and reading her books, her red hair and milk white skin carefully hidden from the sun. Only Alexandra had shown any interest in paddling a boat, hiking the nearby hills or swimming in the frigid lake.

  “Alex found something in the woods.” Lizbeth stared at her sister’s cupped hands, eager to see.

  “It’s nothing but a filthy old bird,” Celeste said, wrinkling her nose.

  “Oh, Alex. You shouldn’t have taken him from his nest,” Lizbeth scolded.

  “He’s wounded, Grandpa Sully.” Alexandra looked at her grandfather with brimming eyes. “His mother and the rest of the babies were all dead. Buck said, from the prints around
the tree, it was probably a hungry raccoon.”

  “You’ve got bird blood on your hands. That’s disgusting.” Celeste flounced away, still wrinkling her nose.

  “What’re you going to do with him?” Lizbeth took a step back, hoping to avoid getting any stains on her tidy shorts.

  “I want to help him. Can I, Grandpa Sully?”

  Paddy Sullivan put a hand on his granddaughter’s shoulder. “You can try, honey. But without his mother to feed him, he probably won’t make it.”

  “That’s what Buck said. But I want to try.”

  He nodded. “Okay, darlin’. You’ll need to keep him warm. And then you’d better figure out how to find worms and grind them up so he can swallow them.”

  “Eeeyeou.” Disgusted, Lizbeth ran off, leaving Alexandra scrambling to her feet, stroking the tiny bird’s head.

  “Don’t worry, little bird. I’ll take care of you,” she crooned as she headed toward the warmth of the fireplace inside the lodge. “I’ll find you a cozy bed, and then I’ll hunt you up a tasty dinner.”

  With a bemused expression Paddy Sullivan stood watching. His son and daughter-in-law often worried about their oldest daughter, who would rather play ice hockey than figure skate, and who preferred hiking and boating to ballet and tea parties. But he had no such concerns. She may be a tough little tomboy, but she had the most tender of all hearts.

  He shook his head as he returned to the dock and tossed out his fishing line, hoping to hook enough bass for dinner. If anyone could nurse a wounded critter back to life, it would be his little Alex. In fact, he’d put his money on that tenacious little female to succeed at whatever she put her mind to.

  Chapter 1

  The long, drawn out wail of a tenor sax issued from the car radio. It was a sound that never failed to stir the senses. But Grant Malone tuned it out. The scenery of the New Hampshire countryside was postcard-perfect in the autumn sunshine, but he never even noticed. His thoughts had turned inward. Dark, tormented thoughts that blotted out whatever beauty there might be around him. His mind was filled with images of death and destruction. Twisted images from which he could find no relief. By day they stalked him. By night they crept into his dreams, so that even in sleep there was no refuge.

  After leaving the little village of Snug Harbor, he pulled off the road to study the map. A short time later he turned the Jeep onto a dirt trail and followed along a series of twists and turns until he spotted the rustic covered bridge up ahead. Starkly simple, its red roof glistened in the late afternoon sunshine. This, more than anything he’d encountered so far, had the look of New England about it. At some other time he might have admired the clever design that protected the wooden trusswork from rain, snow and ice. But his mind was far too distracted to appreciate the craftsman’s handiwork.

  As he emerged on the other end, a wooden sign confirmed that he was approaching the Snug Harbor Lodge. With a sigh he swerved up the rutted driveway until he came to a bumpy stop. He’d been on the road for more than ten hours, and his cramped muscles were beginning to protest.

  He stepped out of the vehicle and rolled his shoulders, then looked up to see an old man just rounding the building. His hair was little more than tufts of white cotton, around a face the texture of leather, deeply tanned and marked with lines of age. He wore bib overalls over a plaid shirt with the sleeves rolled to his elbows. On his feet were sturdy boots.

  “Afternoon.” Grant’s voice held the rough edge of tension. “Are you Alex?”

  “Nope.” The old man shifted a bucket of paint to his other hand before pointing. “Down there.”

  “Thanks.” Grant slammed the door and started off toward the lake. The surrounding forest of evergreen and fiery maple, purple oak and yellow ash were a riot of color reflected in the water’s glassy surface. It was more brilliant than any artist’s canvas. But the beauty of the scene, like everything he’d witnessed so far this day, was lost on Grant.

  Along the shore he spotted a line of canoes and rowboats, all overturned and resting on sawhorses. As he drew closer he could see someone in faded sweats and a baseball cap kneeling in the dirt, making long smooth strokes with a paintbrush.

  “Hey.”

  A head came up at his shout. A hand paused in midstroke, then continued on until the last section was completed.

  “You must be Alex,” he called.

  “That’s right. Alexandra Sullivan.” The voice was pure velvet. And the face, when she turned and he caught sight of it, was unmistakably female. And stunningly beautiful, despite the dab of paint on her nose.

  At some other time he would have given a long, slow look of pure male appreciation. And then would have taken his time to bask in the glow of that smile. But that was before. Before his life had become a series of painful self-examinations and bitter bouts of self-doubt.

  “Grant Malone.” He extended his hand and waited as she set down the paintbrush and wiped her hand on a rag before accepting his handshake.

  “Welcome to Snug Harbor Lodge. Any trouble finding your way?”

  “No. The map was pretty clear.” His eyes narrowed as he peered around, assessing the terrain. There were a hundred places where a gunman with a high-powered rifle could conceal himself, if he were so inclined. Grant felt entirely too vulnerable standing here in the open. He much preferred the danger of the familiar city to the unknown hazards of this unfamiliar countryside.

  What had ever possessed him to believe that he could find some sort of solace out here in the middle of nowhere?

  Misreading his tension as fatigue, Alex smiled, hoping to put him at ease. “My grandfather said you didn’t know how long you’d be staying.”

  “That’s right.” He swung his gaze back to her. There was no answering smile on his lips. “I was told that wouldn’t be a problem.”

  “I don’t mind if you don’t.” She picked up the paintbrush. “Stay as long as you want. But you’ll be roughing it. This is our off-season.”

  As the old man walked up to join them, she gave a nod of her head. “Have you met Lem? Lem Latimer, this is Grant Malone.”

  The two men shook hands.

  Alex added, “Lem and I use this time to make repairs to the lodge and equipment. That doesn’t leave us much time to visit.”

  Grant’s tone hardened. “I didn’t come up here to be entertained.”

  “That’s good.” The old man gave a terse laugh and glanced at Alex, who nodded.

  “The only entertainment you’ll see these days is provided by the wildlife. The deer have figured out that hunting season is over. They often come right up to the windows and peek inside.” Alex chuckled. “So don’t worry if you see a set of antlers silhouetted against the shades some night. It’s not a prowler. Just a curious deer.”

  When there was no answering laugh from Grant Malone, she returned to her painting. “You may as well settle in with your gear. Once inside the main room, hang a right and follow the hallway. It’s the first bedroom on the left.”

  “Thanks.” He turned away.

  As he made his way to the Jeep, Alex glanced up and studied his retreating figure. Seeing Lem watching her, she shot him a sideways look. “Real friendly, isn’t he?”

  The old man gave one of his lopsided grins. “Looks like he’s got troubles.”

  “Yeah. Don’t we all?” As she returned to her work she mused aloud, “Funny. When my grandfather asked me to do a favor for an old friend, I just assumed he’d be…” She shrugged. “…old.”

  “Maybe he’s the son of an old friend.”

  “Must be.” She forced her attention to the job at hand and gave a sigh. “Now I guess I’ll have to give some thought to what I’ll fix for supper.”

  “Thought you enjoyed cooking.”

  “I do. When we’re out on the trail hunting and fishing. But this time of year, I look forward to a break from routine. I was already thinking about taking a long soak in the bathtub tonight, and maybe enjoying a grilled cheese sandwich in bed, along wit
h a good book.”

  The old man gave a snort of laughter. “So hand him a grilled cheese and tell him he’s on his own.”

  “I might do that.” She bent to her work. “But I’ll worry about it later. Right now I want to get these finished before dark.”

  Grant hauled his battered duffel from the back of the Jeep and made his way inside the lodge. In the great room he paused to look around. Hot coals from a wood fire glowed on the hearth. The fire-place was built of massive stones and soared all the way to the ceiling. Up above was the carved mahogany railing of a second-floor balcony that ringed the entire room. The ceiling revealed rough-hewn wooden beams.

  He carried his bag down the hall and located his room. Inside was a king-size bed covered with a green plaid quilt and half a dozen plump pillows. Across the room was a fireplace, already arranged with logs and kindling on the grate, and more logs stacked beside it. In front of the fireplace was a comfortable overstuffed chair and ottoman, as well as a side table with a reading lamp and a pile of books. Along another wall was a desk and chair, a television and stereo, and what appeared to be a well-stocked library of music and videos.

  He unpacked, hanging his clothes in an armoire, before carrying his shaving kit to the bathroom. It had a separate dressing area, a shower big enough for two, and a whirlpool tub presumably needed to soothe muscles after a day of tramping through the woods.

  Grant’s frown grew. If this was roughing it, he’d hate to think what Alexandra Sullivan considered luxurious.

  Alex. He stowed his shaving gear, before carrying the kit to the closet and depositing it in his empty suitcase. Not at all the type he’d expected to find running a sportsman’s lodge.

  Though his grandfather had often spoken about the Sullivan family, and the many hotels and inns they owned and operated, he’d never given Grant any reason to think the manager of Snug Harbor Lodge was a beautiful woman.

  Not that it mattered. She could be as glamorous as a movie star and he still wouldn’t be interested. What he craved, desperately, was time alone.

  Time. He didn’t think there was enough left to heal the hole in his heart. But it was what all the so-called experts had recommended. And since nothing else had helped, he’d decided to give it a try. He would kill time—an interesting choice of words, he thought with a grimace—here in this wilderness lodge, doing exactly as he pleased. He could stay in bed all day, or read or do nothing more challenging than lie on his back and watch the shifting pattern of the clouds in the sky.